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20 things to complete before summer ends.
1) Achieve at least an 85%+ in grade 12 English
2) Get my iphone back
3) Finish the season with 20+ goals
4) Ride the behemoth and the levithan
5) Have most of grad trip paid for
6) Have money down for a car
7) Drop five pounds
8) Have solid abs :)
9) Do a 10k run
10) Reconnect with Justin, cause I really miss him
11) Do the CN tower Sky Walk
12) Learn how to play the guitar(better)
13) Go OVO Fest:)))))))))))


Right now I can only think of 13 things but overall the point is to have a summer that I can be proud of myself for, not “YOLO’ING” and drinking and having sex with the entire city, but doing things for MYSELF, and being able to say I did it, without the help of anyone. And the the rest are things that overall will just make me happy, which is all I care about these days.

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"Its not even the fact that we didn’t work out, that is the farthest thing from my mind, cause were only teenagers and trust me their will be so many more people that we will meet and will take our breath away, so the fact that we didn’t work out isn’t what frustrates me. What makes me mad is that, I was in this exact place last year, telling myself, my friends that I wouldn’t if its the last thing I do, end up in this state again, and here I am, almost exactly a year later, in the same exact place. Feeling the same way. But again, I did this to myself and I have no one to blame but myself."


"Promise to myself: You can be as selfish as you want, you can achieve your dreams before anything else. It is okay to think of yourself and your well being before anything or anyone else, because that’s what people have done to you. It is okay to work on being a better version of yourself and its okay to be hurt. But you cannot and will not sit in your own misery, you will be fine. If no one cares and if no one is there, care and be there for yourself."


"My only saving grace is telling myself that everything happens for a reason, the good ol God works in mysterious ways, that somehow something positive will come from it, but I don’t believe that’s how it happens. I believe that in general life just sucks sometimes, and after a couple good tears, some Golden girls and an endless supply of “you’ll be okay”.. I just might.. maybe."